Today was suppose to be my surgery day. The day that my life changed.
I received a call from the surgeons office yesterday at 1pm saying all the beds in the hospital were full. They were closing the OR unless it was life threatening. They re-booked my surgery for Dec 7th.
I have a mix of emotions about this. One I was numb. There was nothing no one could do. Two I was upset because this will mess up my college schedule and I will miss at east two classes. Three I felt that they had let me down to no fault of their own. No, no one said let’s stick it to Penny but I felt they had and at the time time I understood.
The poor girl who had to call and tell me was so upset and sad to have to tell me that I felt bad for her. She was kind and explained everything well. Yes these two weeks will fly by but I feel I already did my two weeks.. Three weeks…
Oh well I am fine really and there is much worse things in the world. I am still grateful for this opportunity in 2 weeks. I will keep doing my Optifast and add low fat and low carb dinners.
I was at a family members when I got the call and on my home I had to drive by 3 McDonald’s. My brain tried to reason with my belly that it’ Ok to have a chicken sandwich. I had worked hard and this wasn’t my fault. But I resisted. I made a ton of fat free pudding this morning. I made more crystal light pop’.
So far I have lost 21 pounds in 3 weeks. I will stay focused and I will stay the course. I will not undo what I have done. I will walk and nap often. Lol
I am posting this from my phone. I will recheck it for the many errors later.
I am human and I will struggle and fall but I will always get back up.