I have no posted in awhile because I was becoming consumed by this surgery. Yes it is serious and needs much though but I have been doing that for the last ten years of my life. I got to a point after they pushed by my surgery that all I did was think about it. I needed to refocus and I did just that!
On OptiFast I have lost 32 pounds. I am excited about that and I can tell in some smalls ways. Underwear is loser and pants that I used to have to tug up now slide right up. It is nice to see a difference even if it is not much.
I went out to dinner with some friend a few days ago and they asked if I had already had the surgery because I looked great. That was nice of them and made me smile. I do not see it in myself yet though. I think that is normal from what I have read. I promised myself I would not look at any side by sides until I was at least one month out from surgery.
The last two weeks I also had my husband hide my scale until last night. Some people love the scale. I hate it. Hee hee. It is not my friend on daily basis. I am very hard on myself like many people who are over weight are. I also do not plan on weighing myself until One month out from surgery. I know from reading forums people GAIN weight the first week because of swelling and all the fluids they give you in the hospital. So I will be asking my husband to hide it again.
I am packed and excited but I am also much more mellow then I was the first time (surgery was canceled and pushed back).
16 hours we leave for the 2 hour drive to the hospital I doubt I will sleep.
I will be making a long post about my surgery day and hospital stay when I return home.
I miss food but even more I miss being thin. That is what I keep reminding myself. What do I want more?